There's an ocean of sorrow in you

Recently, I've been thinking of the life we are living, everyone is just too busy, everyone only cares about basic stuff such as: when will get a new apartment, or getting a car, getting married, everyone has to work more that forty hours a week in order to have a bit below an average life, in order to survive.

The world became a dangerous place, everyone is running, rushing, give me a break! No wonder almost nothing interests me anymore, I am getting a feeling of someone who went to hell after being in heaven, from everything to nothing, from being rich with everything available to being really poor where nothing available, and the very few things available is just so damn worthless, silly things, that does not interest, and why would it interests when you experienced things that are far better.

Maybe I was young, and didn't see what life is really about, or maybe we are living it in a wrong way, I miss all the small things that make our live worth, social life, sitting at night alone counting the stars without thinking about nasty stuff like "what shall I do tomorrow for x thing?" or "when I am going to finish y?" ...

Wait a bit please, where are we going? what are we doing? where the life did go with its beautiful meanings? how did we come to this level? Sometimes I wish wiping out this life, to start all over again, I have dream, to travel to some areas of the world like Africa, where life still more simpler, although it is more harder there, but I am sure it gives more satisfaction, at least you don't have to be a survivor in this world.

Yes, we are survivors, trying to survive this life, we don't even have specific goals, the man do not have time to write books, read books for example, inventing stuff has become rare thing, studying math, or physics is almost absent, people are only care for money now, how to make more money in easier, less time ways, I don't blame them, they need to survive.

No wonder we are going down and down, no wonder we are fighting each other for silly stuff, human race is taking the earth and its resources into a really low level, they do not appreciate things, their only purpose is to pass, life is moving very fast, and if you don't rush like everyone, you will miss the train.

Burden, what life become is burden on our shoulders, this is really sad, it is not right to me, to live just like that, there is more important stuff to do, but hey, I need to marry, get a family, and live like anyone else, by then, only few years will separate you from death, and what you did? yes, yes, I made a family, and got home, but isn't that what people used to do since Adam & Eve? I though these stuff comes by nature, but didn't you notice it became our only goal now? don't you notice you need this to survive? how pathetic is that.

There's an ocean of sorrow in me...