Finally, a wave

August 20

Twenty four years ago, I came to this life, since then, I celebrated my Birthday on this day every year, but I never expected to get the best BD ever on my 24th BD, I would like to thank everyone from my heart, without you, it was not possible, celebrating my birthday twice, both of them were so nice, and enjoying my day till the last moment is such wonderfull, thank you all.

One of the funnies comments I got at work:

Happy Birthday , 3o2bal 120 saneh, although I think you will take it as da3weh 3leek

hehe :D, yes some how I prefer a short life than a long one :O

Some people deserver special thanks, I won't start mentioning the names, However I am sure they know themselves :)

Ahmad Bdair - see you next year - :)

There's an ocean of sorrow in you

Recently, I've been thinking of the life we are living, everyone is just too busy, everyone only cares about basic stuff such as: when will get a new apartment, or getting a car, getting married, everyone has to work more that forty hours a week in order to have a bit below an average life, in order to survive.

The world became a dangerous place, everyone is running, rushing, give me a break! No wonder almost nothing interests me anymore, I am getting a feeling of someone who went to hell after being in heaven, from everything to nothing, from being rich with everything available to being really poor where nothing available, and the very few things available is just so damn worthless, silly things, that does not interest, and why would it interests when you experienced things that are far better.

Maybe I was young, and didn't see what life is really about, or maybe we are living it in a wrong way, I miss all the small things that make our live worth, social life, sitting at night alone counting the stars without thinking about nasty stuff like "what shall I do tomorrow for x thing?" or "when I am going to finish y?" ...

Wait a bit please, where are we going? what are we doing? where the life did go with its beautiful meanings? how did we come to this level? Sometimes I wish wiping out this life, to start all over again, I have dream, to travel to some areas of the world like Africa, where life still more simpler, although it is more harder there, but I am sure it gives more satisfaction, at least you don't have to be a survivor in this world.

Yes, we are survivors, trying to survive this life, we don't even have specific goals, the man do not have time to write books, read books for example, inventing stuff has become rare thing, studying math, or physics is almost absent, people are only care for money now, how to make more money in easier, less time ways, I don't blame them, they need to survive.

No wonder we are going down and down, no wonder we are fighting each other for silly stuff, human race is taking the earth and its resources into a really low level, they do not appreciate things, their only purpose is to pass, life is moving very fast, and if you don't rush like everyone, you will miss the train.

Burden, what life become is burden on our shoulders, this is really sad, it is not right to me, to live just like that, there is more important stuff to do, but hey, I need to marry, get a family, and live like anyone else, by then, only few years will separate you from death, and what you did? yes, yes, I made a family, and got home, but isn't that what people used to do since Adam & Eve? I though these stuff comes by nature, but didn't you notice it became our only goal now? don't you notice you need this to survive? how pathetic is that.

There's an ocean of sorrow in me...

Emotional Intelligent

I haven't posted for a while, this is because I was too busy in the past few weeks, real life is way too hard, and if you don't catch up, you will lose things, and trust me, it won't give you many chances.

Anyway, when I was a kid, I used to analyse people's reactions, I had the ability to predict what reactions some one will make when he faces a certain situation, I could know what others think, how do they exactly feel toward things.

I do not know if I should call it a Gift or a Curse, or both, I always think before I say something, this is because I know how each word will affect the person I am talking to, the funny thing, I can use this to make people feel like shit, sometimes, few people I know try to disturb me, and I can make them feel so bad about themselves, because I am able to say the words that affects them the most, I know how do they feel at that moment, and I can choose words to make them feel worse, but I usually don't, maybe I am a good person, maybe I don't like to hurt others.

From what I learned, People tend to like spontaneous, here the curse part, because I simply cannot be a spontaneous person, usually when I meet new people, it takes quite some time before they get use to me, they usually think I am a complex person, or a bigot, they think I have goals behind my words, while I usually don't, I used to live with it now, but some times I just wish I never had this Gift, or Curse? 

The Drapery Falls

A note before you start reading, If you read the first line of this post & didn't understand what the hell I am talking about, then stop reading it, you won't understand it unless you have been through it.

Have you ever met someone who shake the core foundation of your self? Because when you do, you enter a conflict between you and your self! you start thinking day and night, you cannot sleep well, & you fall into depression, you get a very strange feeling toward yourself, mixed between hate & love, some times hatred.

You know, when spending 20, 40, 60 years hoping that we will not face our weaknesses, but deeply inside we know it is about time...  the day comes, & we meat that person who represent one of our weaknesses, he makes us angry at ourselves, because we know about this weakness & we tried many times to change ourselves, but we never succeeded. The irony is that we start to  think of that person & we get a strong feeling (I think it is Curiosity) which pushes us to know this person more & more, maybe it is the curiosity to know more about our weaknesses, maybe this will help us to understand ourselves better.

Each day our feelings increase, we become worried all the time, thinking about that person, and how he/ she could shake our core foundation, self confidence decreases, we feel like shit about ourselves...

Our characters are no longer stable, & we struggle to make it stable once again, so we might follow the easy solution & stop seeing this person (we always run, sadly), we eliminate him from our life!, some people decide to face, pushing that person to lie on them to feel better toward themselves, others, release a simple fact, that this person who represent your weakness, has a weakness, they might meet him in his weakness moment, when they do, they feel they are even, they realize that non of us perfect, every one suffers, at that moment they rejoice, and once again, we are stable.

Everybody´s Fool

I would make a post, but this song speak for it self, and it did summarize what I was going to post.

Enjoy it, great song. Evanescence - Everybody's Fool

Elite People!

Elite People, Hardcore, Best of the Best & many other names, those people are like any other precious thing in the world, they are so damn rare! They were designed, or better, they developed their selves to carry the hard work, take the responsibility, they do not fear to be responsible, in fact, they love responsibility, they know the real way to self satisfaction.

Now, if you want to know what Elite People really mean, ask your self "Whom the people I can count on?" or let me ask you, is there some one in your life that you ask him to do something without expecting answers like "I didn't do it, or I forgot, or I will do it tomorrow, forgive me I've been busy" if you have some one in you mind now, then he is Elite (to you at least). Elite People generally do not whine or complain about things, they have Passion toward work & doing things right, they can manage their time in a very successful way to do things in the best possible way.

Elite People can be found generally in areas where you need to depend on your self in a very early stage of life, where you need to struggle & work very hard to get money to live. I can safely say that all prophets were Elites, one Elite can change the world, imagine a group of Elites together? they can do the impossible, but you barely find them, how about when it comes to create group of them?!

Look at the history, every huge event in the history is done by small group of people who took the first step, I can write ten pages about those people, but to summarize, Elite people are the people who have the passion to do work, who carry responsibility without complaining or whining, & you know when they start doing something they will finish it in the best you can imagine, such people end up in a high positions in their society & they generally have a very successful life.

Finally, a quote for an Elite person, who never believed in the word "fail" in his life: "I haven't failed. I have just found 10,000 ways that won't work" - Thomas A. Edison - .