Emotional Intelligent

I haven't posted for a while, this is because I was too busy in the past few weeks, real life is way too hard, and if you don't catch up, you will lose things, and trust me, it won't give you many chances.

Anyway, when I was a kid, I used to analyse people's reactions, I had the ability to predict what reactions some one will make when he faces a certain situation, I could know what others think, how do they exactly feel toward things.

I do not know if I should call it a Gift or a Curse, or both, I always think before I say something, this is because I know how each word will affect the person I am talking to, the funny thing, I can use this to make people feel like shit, sometimes, few people I know try to disturb me, and I can make them feel so bad about themselves, because I am able to say the words that affects them the most, I know how do they feel at that moment, and I can choose words to make them feel worse, but I usually don't, maybe I am a good person, maybe I don't like to hurt others.

From what I learned, People tend to like spontaneous, here the curse part, because I simply cannot be a spontaneous person, usually when I meet new people, it takes quite some time before they get use to me, they usually think I am a complex person, or a bigot, they think I have goals behind my words, while I usually don't, I used to live with it now, but some times I just wish I never had this Gift, or Curse?